spontaneous shopping trip

My favourite teacher at Uni smiled at me and wished me "Good Morning" which made my day. He is so lovely that I brightened up at once and spent the day humming. Funny how some people are able to make you feel good only by saying two words. I had some spare time in between courses and I went shopping. I treated myself with a very comfy, pretty jumper and THE most beautiful scarf. Yay! Even the sun began shining just when I was leaving the shop :) I also had an idea for a topic for one of my term papers which calmed me down a little, because I'm beginning to panic, to be honest.

One of my best friends is not well. I mean, she's not feeling well. She has man trouble and although she is lovely and funny and chatting away all the time I know that her heart is broken. She looks so sad sometimes and although I tell her that she can talk to me any time and that HE is just an idiot and that everything will be alright again, I know that it isn't comforting her. I feel so sorry for her, that I#m almost in pain. :(

Oooooooh, babbu!

beautiful winter bouquets

oh, how lovely.

me most of the time these days. My need of sleep is incredible. 9 hours are not nearly sufficient. Why?!

ugh, very long day. Job interview in the morning which didn't go too well, I'm afraid. :S *sigh* Please let them take me on anyway, that would be fabulous. I'm feeling like a complete failure these days because nothing works out, really. Love life: zero, uni:hmm, friends: quite good, self-esteem: zero. All hopes are set on two work experience applications.

Oh, Mr Thornton!

I just realised that my background wallpaper looks almost exactly the same as the Hales' in BBCs "North & South". I knew it reminded me of something. There is a coffeeshop in my town that has a beautiful wallpaper with animals and flowers on it. I'm never brave enough to ask if the guy at the counter happens to know where they got it , because it's usually a handsome guy serving and stupid me isn't brave enough to talk to him. Resolution for the new year: Building up confidence!!!! Otherwise I'll never attract a man like this:

Look at Margaret Hale. She follows her own heart and mind although the whole town and Mr Thornton practically believe her to be a slut and SHE gets Mr Sexbomb-Thornton!

Why wasn't I told??? I love the second one, it's almost as if he is talking to YOU!

One of my favourite pictures to calm me down...

Uuuuh, I applied for a really important work experience. Fingers crossed! I NEED this job! I'm not satisfied with my meagre CV bur maybe they'll take me out of pity...

I'm sad tonight. I don't even know why, exactly. I couldn't tell my friends when we were meeting earlier. I bought popcorn and settled down with "Misfits" but it isn't working. This day was full of thousands of little incidents that annoyed me and I came home and cried for a while because I felt like shit. I wish I was a happier person sometimes.

I just attended a beautiful matinee concert. The pianist played pieces by Bach and the whole world just looked a little bit brighter.

i need a snowday

A wonderful day to start my blog. The snow is still here and when I left the house the sun was rising and turned everything in a dream of sparkling white.
I began the day with a very good friend and a large amount of coffee. Talked about future boyfriends and imagined a Benedict Cumberbatch-clone wearing perfect fitting suits 24/7 and discussing interesting features in modernist literature. Well, a girl is allowed to dream...
Slightly shocked though about BC's hairstyle in the Julian Assange film. !!!

So, this is my new project for this year. Finally I could bring myself to set up a blog. I need to get some structure into my life and maybe this will help me to focus on something without giving up after a while. I will use this as a diary but mainly it's about re-blogging pretty things and giggling over handsome actors. Ugh, I'm pretty childish, I know, but due to the spectacular lack of a male protagonist in MY life, that's all I can do at the moment.
So, I hope, you'll enjoy reading this as much as I do writing it and I look forward to start properly!